Goodbye Ellie.......

I credit this picture to Florence Peitsch (Renee Coventry's soon to be mother-in-law). As she said in the book that this came from......that she hopes that she is connecting with something the person feels who is viewing the painting. That is certainly happening for me in this picture. My emotions are confused and erratic today as I commit to the idea that Ellie is actually leaving; that there is a strong possibility that she and Jordan will never return to live in Queensland; that I may never be near her as she raises her children (as is the case for Rikki and Cheyne); that maybe I am a mother whose children need to be away from me for them to be the person that God has intended them to be (Kevin points out to me enough times my shortcomings as a parent); that this is all part of God's plan for us and our family (how can I argue with that?); that I am struggling to let go and accept these things because of some inadequcy within myself; that I am human and may be selfish in wanting to share more closely in the lives of my children. God grant me those fruits of the Spirit that allow me to let go....as Florence's mother too let go of her as she moved to a foreign land. Whilst circumstances will always prevent us from returning to South Australia to live, I believe and must accept that our move here too was somehow part of God's greater plan for our lives, even if none of our children choose to remain here. God grant me the serenity to accept the things that I cannot change...........................